Recycled Fabric of Reality

I'm Back - And The Big Bang Theory!

2010-09-23T09:12:00.000-07:00

I was looking for a picture I had posted on here FOREVER ago and I realized that I totally missed telling the world what I did everyday - as mundane as it might be - and I am going to try and start it up again. YAYA!

Plus, with Supernatural season right around the corner there will be plenty to talk about.

First order of business, before I post this, I am now a fan of The Big Bang Theory and more importantly of Sheldon. :). Hooray for geekhood!

Another Post

2010-02-24T11:39:00.001-08:00

BETTER EXAMPLE. . .this one had me in tears.

http://www.wimp.com/iraqreturn/

Been A While

2010-02-24T10:04:00.000-08:00

Things are going good. I've moved to Washington State. I have an apartment I'm sharing with my best friend, I have a vehicle and I have been job searching non-stop so hopefully something will open up soon. ;)

I'm back because I totally HAD to post a link to this vid. It's so...hm. Words are hard to use in describing it. I guess it's just a small way that the soldiers of America sacrifice for us. Thanks, to everyone who is serving or who has served in the past. You guys/gals rock!!

http://www.wimp.com/dogsoldier/

Another Day

2009-11-20T18:02:00.000-08:00

Another day. Nothing much .We went to another local library and did a whole bunch of stuff. I'm sure things will go better on the job front this next week.

Tomorrow me and Mel are going to a church retreat where we will be for a night and another day. I'll let you know what happens.

I'm going to make cool beaded, shelled things and I'll post pictures of them as they are created.

I discovered a new show that I am obsessed with and it's called The Listener. This is a family friendly show and only mildly scifi. Great storylines and I think the main guy looks like a young John Shepherd.

Okay, I'm going to log off now. Not much to say and I'm tired. *yawn* More later.

Another Day

2009-11-19T17:18:00.000-08:00

Got our library cards and I have checked out a tons of books about everything. They've got some really great library's around here and I really love it! I was able to find some great things to read.

Today I went and checked out the local Department of Social and Health services. I had an interview at three, but chickened out a few hours early so that got canceled - it was for a car sales position at Kia. *gulp*. Anywhoo, I discovered that Bremerton, WA makes my motion sickness a mazillion times worse because of all the hills and bends and stuff in the roads. I also discovered where the Work Source placey is so I will go there next week at some point - or I can just visit it online if I don't want to drive over there.

The rain has been great and the temperatures have been great so far. Not TOO cold except for inside where it is freezing, but blankets help out there so all in all things are going fine.

I'll write more tomorrow. Today was pretty hectic and choatic and...exhausting so I'm going to bed now.

I LIKE IT HERE

2009-11-17T18:04:00.000-08:00

Several people have e-mailed me after reading my blog posts so far and they seem to think I don't like it here. Sorry, if my posts come across as overly sarcastic and, well, just plain negative. I tend to sound that way in type because you can't hear my tone of voice which is often...well....sarcastic. lol.

Um. Anyway, I like it here. I just find it a little frightening that everything is so new. As you all know, I totally don't do NEW very well so I find this experience to be a bit on the taxing side, so to speak.

Bright side for today - WE NOW HAVE COFFEE~!!!!!!!! !!!!! !!!! And, yes, all of those exclamation marks ARE called for. lol. :D :D :D Life is always brighter with coffee. We've been driving around town yesterday and today trying to find out where everything is located at and stuff like that. I found out that I'm going to need to figure out how to get classified as Low Income so that I can get a lower price on the bus. It's either that or I walk everywhere in the rain and with my immune system shot all to .... hades. Um. Yeah. Today was pretty uneventful.

I have an interview set for Thursday at 3:00 in Bremerton for a car sales position. Yikes. It's for a place called Hoover Kia. NO IDEA what that is exactly and I highly doubt that I will get the job, but I am going to try my darndest, because even if I cannot stay on long-term even one paycheck would help me pay bills. I can suffer through one paycheck at the very least and who knows, I might actually be good at it and like it. (don't laugh)

....btw, I thought that I should mention that my grammer and stuff gets REALLY HORRIBLE when it comes to typing out stuff on blogs. I don't know where all of the commas and periods go or come from. Also, I am an icon-addict and I post random icons CONTINUOUSLY...pretty much. *blush*. It's a bit weird so ignore it. Or post a comment, I don't really care. Whatever makes you feel better.

I should have more pictures, but it stays pretty dark around here, what with all the rain and stuff, so I wasn't able to get some fair pics to post. There was a few hours of bright sunshine today though. It was cool. I also applied to another half a dozen jobs today so that's cool and they are all VERY local and within reason as far as requirements go. So, no more car sales jobs. Lol.

It's so funny!! As I'm driving around the town here I'm seeing all the places that I applied to before coming. :P I've applied to practically EVERYWHERE except most of the car mechanic places - I did apply to some of those though just encase they needed a receptionist or something like that. I'll let you know how stuff pans out.

OH~! I almost forgot! I have a library card here and it's a HUNDRED books a go!! I'm so excited about this. Yeay. Okay, I gotta go do some more job searching and watch some more SGA and check out my farmville and write some more on my stories (I'm one chapter away from finishing my latest) and I really need to catch up on the news around here.

Yep, yep. Again, if you have questions leave them in the comment sections and stuff. It's a bit disheartening not to see any comments. *sigh* Still, I know that you guys are reading this because I've had the whole 'you must really hate it there' e-mails coming in. lol.

Btw, I LOVE RAIN, so no worries on that front either. ;) More later.

(AGAIN, Icon-Addict here *waves* so be prepared for that).

I'M AT THE LIBRARY

2009-11-16T14:41:00.000-08:00

SQUEEEEEE! I'm at the library here. It's so nice and we can check out a hundred books at a time. *faints from happy*. The first checkout is only TWO though so I got Quantum Physics for Dummies to help me with my current story plot and a little book on Knitting so that I can finish my fingerless gloves. Yeppers. It'll be good.

I just finished getting all of the transit information I'll need. It's 25 dollars a month for a pass. Yikes. I have that much if I don't bail my bank account out of the red. *sigh* I try not to think about how horrible my credit is going to be by the time I get work. *headdesk*.

I also looked up all the directions for places that I need to go around town (walmart, department of health, department of labor, dollar store, post office, etc) and I downloaded them to my computer. Also, I looked at more places to apply, but I'm going to wait until I go to the deparment of labor and grab some applications so that I can go in ...in person. *gulp*. I think that's the best way to go about this.

So. Yeah. That's what's happened so far over here on my first day. I locked Peshy in the bathroom while we're gone. I guess I'll find out when we get back whether that was a great or a poor idea. *double-sigh*. She's probably been barking since we left. *wince* The neighbors will hate us. :(.

I'll figure something out with Peshy. *nods* Talk to you guys later!!

UPDATE

2009-11-16T13:59:00.000-08:00

I got a video of the living room that we are staying in. DO NOT LISTEN TO THIS as it was recorded on my phone and the audio completely sucks. Hm. More pictures, etc. to come in the future.

You all have a great week!

MADE IT TO PORT ORCHARD

2009-11-16T11:04:00.000-08:00

Well, me and Melissie got - predictably - lost in Seattle, but we managed to get ourselves out of there without too much trouble. Ended up taking a Ferry instead of the Bridge though. *rolls eyes* That's 14 bucks right there. But that's okay because Melissie loooo-oooved the Ferry. *gag* I hated it. THE HORIZON KEPT MOVING!!! O_O Then we were going to HIT the dock thingy and then we DID hit the dock thingy!!

Mel has delusions. She thinks we're doing it AGAIN, because it was so darned FUN. omg.

My Pesh-Pesh is just loving it here except for the rain which she is slowly getting used to...sorta. She's never liked rain, but I think she finally figured out it wasn't going to STOP just so that she could go outside. :P She likes the people we are staying with, the neighbors dog and she isn't even trying to kill the cat. Well, not exactly, anyway.

On the bright side. I'm not going to have to give her baths ALL THE TIME, because she's always sopping wet when she comes inside. :P. One problem solved.

This week I will be working first on finding local transportation for me so that I know which directions I can make it for work and how far. Then it will be focusing my job hunting on THOSE areas instead of all over kingdom come. *sigh* I've got some job interviews this week, but after driving around here I am going to have to cancel all of those. They aren't close enough for me to make it when Melissie gets work. The friend that we are staying with is going to hook Melissie up with a job where she works so Mel will have something almost immediately. A car is a must in order to work there so I cannot even apply. *rolls eyes...again* I'll find something, it will just be more challenging than before.

Soooo-oooo. That's about it so far. If you guys want to know something specific go ahead and post the questions in a comment and I will address it as soon as I can. :D. I hope things are going okay for all of you!

Oh. Before I forget to mention it, we are located RIGHT ON THE FRIGGIN' BEACH so I've been collecting shells and cool stuff to be cleaned, bleached and then added to my collection of things to be bead-ified. :). I found an AWESOME cool rock down there that I'm going to cage in wire and make into a pendant. I'll post a picture of it once it's done. ;)

As most of you are aware, I take pictures of EVERYTHING and I love adding them to my blog posts. The only reason you don't have a video of our new diggs is because Mel is still asleep and I'm not sure where she packed the camera. :P. When she's up and awake I'll add something for you guys to see.

O-M-F-G! I almost forgot!! (Oh, and YES, I actually do swear-ish when I type. So, be prepared) Dangit! I just forgot what is what that I remembered that I forgot that I was going to tell you guys. *is confused* Give me a second. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I REMEMBER! *woot!* We're only, like, two hours from FORKS. You know. FORKS. The place where all the nice vampires are!!!!!! I'm so excited. When we both have jobs we're taking a road trip over there! I'll have to stop at the Sheriff's office (Where Bella's dad works in the books) and the Hospital (Where Mr. Cullen - the vampire - works in the books) AND they even have a Twilight gift shop there. Who'd a thunk. *sarcasm*. Anywhoo, I thought that was cool.

BTW, I hate Seattle. I never want to live there. . . Mel loves it and is convinced that life would be SO MUCH BETTER surrounded by that many people. *shudder*. Yeah. Hm.

Ms. Brown - the person we are staying with - already signed us up for this retreat thing her church is doing. *shrug* I wasn't expecting that, but I don't care because I planned to invade all the churches over this way anyway. :P This way I'll get my first look at their Seventh Day Adventist one (Yeah, she's SDA too)

Well, I'm off to farmville and then it's to the breakfast and then the library and then the job search.

If anyone wants to live chat with me when I'm online, sign up for gmail and add me as a friend or just friend me over on facebook because it has a live chat feature. I go under the name Tina E. Cokenour on facebook.

I'll add more later.

THE TWO

2009-04-18T22:06:00.001-07:00

THE TWO
By Ebbtide

Drain my life into the sewer and flush away all evidence of my pains. Who would want to care for such an animal as me? No one. I can answer that one all on my own.

Dean says I’m not evil. He says that I have a choice. How do you choose your blood? You can’t. See, I’m a smart one. A keeper. I would laugh if it were true or funny.

A serious outlook on my life and past keep me grounded in this despair that I would wish away in the flash of time that it takes for my heart to fully beat. There are no convenient exits with large, glowing signs to unmask their presence in my life. None of that for me to rely on.

My brother can never understand my agony. Tit for Tat. I can never be capable of knowing his regrets from the pit. We share in our self-imposed emotional desolation.

We are two sides of a rusty, lucky penny. A little spit-shine and a wide eyed child away from functionality.

THE END

TODAY

2009-03-15T18:51:00.001-07:00

DON'T LISTEN WITH THE AUDIO ON. My recording audio thing is all screwed up so you'll just get really loud gibberish noise. So, listen on mute.

This is a walk-through of my new place. ;). :). That's my friend's dog, Nakita.

Sitting in a Groomer

2009-02-16T02:03:00.000-08:00

UM. Went to work with Nathan. Sitting in a bumpy groomer thingy. Regretting those gummy bears I ate. They have already made several reappearances. *grimace*. VERY bumpy ride. Have I mentioned that I get motion sickness?? On a couch! This is a little worse, but I'm having fun - except for the gummy bear thing.

Lots of hills. Up and down. Lots of moving fast, stopping suddenly, backing up suddenly, turning in sharp circles suddenly. Urgh. Typing this out is making me feel sick again.

So. Going back to trying to remain NOT vomiting. ;). Good ride though. For anyone whose watched Armageddon, the groomer machines are like the rover thingy they go on the astroid in. UBER-COOLSVILLE! WOOT! WOOT!

Anyway, he's got GOOD MUSIC. MT. DEW ANNNNNNND GUMMY BEARS (but we won't mention those. :p ).

THANK YOU NITE!!!!!!!

2009-02-09T12:40:00.000-08:00

SEX AND VIOLENCE - app. name. ;).

2009-02-05T22:10:00.000-08:00

So far on Sex and Violence.

WOAH. Sammy still keeping secrets from Dean. NOT COOL! Honestly, they are totally screwing up the only good thing that they have by alienating each other. Totally not COOL.! Aargh. They need to have a serious “talking” moment. A hug wouldn’t hurt things either. ;).

The Siren is absolutely HORRIBLE and I hope they are able to stop her, but knowing SN like I do. Things are going to get a lot worse before they get even a little bit better. I’m worried for the boys. I mean, going after this Siren is NOT a good plan. Especially with how…screwed up they both are. Easy prey. ;). J

I feel sorry for all those guys that killed their loved ones while under the Siren spell. I mean, she send them into a philter haze and then LEAVES. Ugh. How horrible is that. L All of those lives ruined. *sigh*.

THEY WERE HAD. Omg. !! Hehe

BOBBY. Yay. I’ve been missing him something horrible. L But hopefully this won’t be the last of the - OMG! Go BOBBY! Omg. Lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay. First off, LOVE the phone thing with Bobby. Squeeeeeeee!! J J J

Second. OMG!!! SAM, you sleep with EVERYONE! Ugh. Which one is the Siren? The doctor or the FBI agent?? I mean, come ON, no one is so similar to Dean - that’s gotta be the Siren…….but……but the Doc kinda seems to be the Siren. I just don’t know. Guess I’ll have to wait and see.

I cannot BELIEVE Sam and Ruby communicate with PHONES. *snirk* Next thing you know Castiel is going to have a speed dial number on Dean’s cell. Lol.! Calling Angels. Lol. J.

Great episode so far. I cannot BELIEVE we’ve got ANOTHER hiatus coming before more new episodes. This season just keeps getting BETTER AND BETTER. I miss Kim Manners. *sigh*. Wish he could have been around to see how totally awesome all this is. L . . .

Okay, so not cool. IT WAS THE GUY! Omg.! *GASP* I don’t believe it. Dean is…Dean is….Dean is going to GO AFTER SAM!!!!!!! Whose eyes were doing weird things, btw. Makes me think that the end of Yellow Fever was NOT a “trick of the light” like everyone’s been telling me. I mean, we just saw it again!! Sam’s eyes flashed yellow twice now! That is SO not good. VERY, VERY BAD.

Okay…..we can see those brothers through this, but I mean, if they don’t start TALKING soon then there is going to be a BIG problem. Then with that huge spoiler leak this last week. “The last three episodes of the season are Dean vs. Sam” …..I worried!!!! What if one of them dies…AGAIN! What if Dean goes back to hell! I don’t think I could handle that for ANOTHER summer.!!! YIKES.

BOBBY SAVED THEM. OH MY GOD. THOSE BOYS ARE JUST AND THAT FIGHT WAS JUST AND THEN THEY SAID. Omg!!!!!!!!!! Then a commercial! What the fuck?!

That fight was just horrible the things that they said to each other. All the things that us fans have been saying and discussing all this season. OMG! DEAN and SAM!!!!!!! This episode is beyond awesome…but…nothing good ever happens to those guys. I mean, we all KNEW it would end with nothing but bad, but STILL. This was even worse than what I had been expecting. The fight I kinda figured on, but the WORDS they said. OMG! Heartbreaking.

I miss the season two dynamic. The “good old days” when they were there for each other even when they were fighting. Season three changed Sam so dramatically and then all that summer when Dean was in hell. Well, it just kept on changing him. I guess it should have been obvious that he could go that way after Dean died. We got a taste of it in Mystery Spot, but still I had hoped. Hope sucks because SN always lets ya down. L

I don’t know for sure how many episodes are left to the season, but if they do NOT resolve the Ruby thing by then all this is going to suck.

OKAY. So that was the worst ending ever - and what I mean by that is now we KNOW that this is just going to continue. OMG. You’d think they’d do that thing called “learning” most people usually catch on.

After what happened at the end of season three I thought they would understand, but I guess not. I mean, they are all that they’ve got. Bobby’s even grown distant over this season (admittedly the actor is a regular on a different show so that could have something to do with it, idk), but they are losing everything that made them want to live in the first place. So sad. L.

New episode and then NADA

2009-02-05T15:03:00.000-08:00

OKAY.

Tonight is the last SN episode for a while. We're being slapped with a new hiatus, which is just very, very unfair and I am not happy with it at all and I would really like for it not to happen, but, guess what?!?! Yeah. It's happening ANYWAY.

Meanies up North just want us to BEG for the finale that's going to make us all upset anyway. omg! *facepalm* I mean, we all KNOW that this season is going to end with the W's fighting each other, heaven and hell. Nothing good is going to come of it and I would just really like to see those boys have a happy ending, but if ONE OF THEM DIES AGAIN IN THE FINALE I WILL BE THE MOST UNHAPPY PERSON EVER!! *snort* So there.

I plan to write the people up North and let them know just what I think about what they plan to do if and when they mess everything up by ending the season with the biggest cliffie yet, which if I know my Kripke, they WILL. omg. Oh, well....then it's going to be all summer of anguishing over the life and death of our boys and I just really want to know what is going to happen to them. Wish that I had access to the scripts! At least then I would have some piece of mind.

And maybe a little peace too. ;) :).

Oh well. Guess I'll see what will happen when the episode comes on tonight. :).

AFTER SCHOOL SPECIAL

2009-01-29T22:22:00.001-08:00

AND IT IS PROVED

Nothing good ever happens on Supernatural. Only bad things can POSSIBLY happen to W’s. This episode totally proved it! *sigh*. Poor Sammy.

Kk. Well, the flashbacks = AWESOME. Love them totally.

I’m glad that Dean is being understanding about this…after their last conversation I was worrying about the W’s and their friendship. It’s kinda….strained these days. Anywhoo. Nice to see that Dean’s still there for his little brother even after all of the things that have come up between them recently.

Alright, so that entire scene with the bus at the end was BEYOND awesome.

AND I totally liked the shots with the boys IN the bus earlier. AWESOME. <3.>

Sam’s words to Dirk. WOW. O_O Talk about your Sam Insights. *nods*. I liked it.

O.M.G. :D :D :D LOVED IT! Woot!

KIM MANNERS WE MISS YOU

2009-01-26T21:07:00.000-08:00

This is just a post dedicated to the totally awesome Kim Manners. I've been a vague fan for a long time until Supernatural. Then I totally fell in love.

We'll miss you Kim and never forget you. R.I.P. Kim Manners. <3

DO WHAT YOU DO BY MUDVAYNE

2009-01-21T13:55:00.000-08:00

Mudvayne - Do What You Do lyrics

(Verse 1)
Lips bleed from the rings,
All these little bruises, the little things,
That provoke the segregation.
Lead the separation.
Cage and clip the wings.
Little noises, the little screams,
That stop the operation.
Conscious amputation.

(Chorus 1)
Just do what you do,
What you do, what you did to me.
Now I'm stuck in between a rock and nowhere,
With nothing,
With no one.
Just do what you do,
What you do, what you've done to me.
Draw the chalk line around the scene, it's over,
Now it's all over.

(Verse 2)
Like a heart that's lost it's beat.
A little boy, that softly weeps,
Overwhelmed with emotion,
Views burns through explosion.
Lost the forest through the trees
Little whispers, the little dreams,
That sparked the recollection.
Constant suffocation.

(Chorus 2)
Just do what you do,
What you do, what you did to me.
Now I'm stuck in between a rock and nowhere,
With nothing,
With no one.
Just do what you do,
What you do, what you've done to me.
Draw the chalk line around the scene, it's over,
Now it's all over.

(Bridge 1)
I can feel my life is changing,
Changing.
I can feel my heart is jaded,
Jaded.

Left the sticks,
Left the stones,
Words don't hurt,
Mend the bones.
I can feel my life is changing.

(Chorus 3)
Just do what you do,
What you do, what you did to me.
Now I'm stuck in between a rock and nowhere,
With nothing,
With no one.
Just do what you do,
What you do, what you've done to me.
Draw the chalk line around the scene, it's over,
Now it's all over.

(Ending/Bridge 2)
Erase the past and leave the pain,
Cleanse the wounds and forget the name.
Lost the will, ran far away,
So it's all over.

Spread the ash and fill the grave,
Lost the tongue and make my way.
Do what you do and go away,
Now it's all over.



Lyrics | Mudvayne lyrics - Do What You Do lyrics

DEAN WINCHESTER IS NOT EVIL

2009-01-18T22:28:00.001-08:00

AAARGGGGGH. Actually, double aaaargh!!

DEAN WINCHESTER IS NOT EVIL! *fist raised to the sky*. NOT EVIL!!

I don't care how many souls he tortured - okay, that's totally a lie. I DO care, but stiill. He did what he did and it happened and he feels horrible about it and I'm totally into giving him another chance

HE IS NOT EVIL.

While we're on that thread, NEITHER IS SAMMY!!! Aaaargh.

*snort*

He's not evil - neither of them are - and there is nothing that they can say or do that can sway me on that...opinion. They have both done things, bad things, but they never asked for that life and they never asked to have to choose between two impossible choices. They did the best with what they had. They made what they felt was the "right" decision...most of the time. In hell when Dean gave in and started torturing souls to end his own torment. Well, he'd been faced witha lifetime of HORRIBLENESS and then HELL. How would anyone else react?! At least he was able to hold out for thirty years - which isn't a long time, granted, but STILL he held out for a while before giving in. It was either hurt himself or hurt something else. *sigh*. POOR DEAN!!

omb. Okay, that's all. Fangirl rant over. *sigh*. My W's are GOOD PEOPLE even when they do bad things for bad reasons and good things for bad reasons. THEY'RE THE W'S! *nods*.

Night world. I still got the flu so you might not hear from me until next week. Stuff's happening here.Still no job. *sigh*. *wave* *yawn*. Later. ;).

HEHE

2009-01-12T22:24:00.000-08:00

I just got back from watching TWILIGHT. It is not only THE BEST MOVIE it is also REALLY COOL!!

Mom, when you read this...WATCH THAT MOVIE. :). You will totally love it. I know that it's about vampires, but it's actually a love story and the vampire's are veggie ones. ;). I read the books one and two before watching the movie so that I would be able to understand what was happening and that made it so that I caught the different meanings behind certain references, but the movie itself without having read the books are just great! WOOT! I hope that they come out with the second movie and don't pull a Golden Compass - where they only did the FIRST book, that sucked.

ANYWAY. AWSESOME. I totally loved that movie and I recommend it to just about anybody with an imagination. ;). :D :D

I also needed to write a Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki shout out because their show is coming back this Thursday. The hiatus has been KILLING ME!!! But it's finally over and from what I've seen in the teasers for this next episode Kripke made another killer episode. ;). No mention of Grace Trees or Anna makeout sessions! WOOOT! If I'm ultra lucky Ruby won't make an appearance. :D :D :D :D :D I hope it's just the J's. ;). :).

Totally had a great night tonight. I ended up driving around after the movie just to drive. I had good music on (MY kind of 'good music', mom heheh) and I totally had a great time. Post more later. ;) :D :D :D

For now I need to go and feed my Gnorbu - oh! I have a Gnorbu now. Her name is FuryanPurifier. She's over and neopoets.com. :D :D :D I should get a picture so that I can show you guys. I need to go feed her and buy some more stuff for her house which means I need to get neopoints to pay for all of that by playing games. lol. I love neopets....aaand SpongeBob. lol. ;).

I know......I'm totally unique. lol. ;). Post more later. Hang tight, world!! :D :D

Good music

2008-12-30T15:41:00.000-08:00

Today and Supernatural

2008-12-27T23:35:00.000-08:00

Supernatural is the best thing ever and I love Jensen Ackles. LOVE the man. End of fangirl shout out. :D.

Today

2008-12-23T20:53:00.000-08:00

Okay. Just a thought. Why do we have to have a hiatus??!!! Supernatural's been MIA for WEEEKS and I miss it. :(. Not to mention the last two episodes that aired weren't exactly stellar in quality - although they were fine in my book because of the GREAT, FINALLY ANSWERED questions of what happened to Sam after Dean died and what Dean was doing in hell - Krissy has brought up new questions towards this development though. Hm. The hell scene, is it complete!??? O_O!!!??

Anyway. I miss Supernatural and no amount of re-runs will make me any less anxious for Jan fifteenth to roll around.

Just watched the new batman movie. When I'm done here I think I will watch again. It was, by far, the best acting I've EVER seen. Dudes, I watch a lot of TV.Movies and it was THE BEST. Hands down. ;). Heath Ledger rocks!! :). Love the guy.

Okay. Still sick today. Hopefully I'll be better by Christmas...That's in, like, what... two days?!! No sweat. Sigh.

Going to Nat-han's in the morning. :).

I'm Just Peachy

2008-12-17T17:41:00.000-08:00

I'M GONNA MOVE INTO THE COUNTRY,

GONNA EAT A LOT OF PEACHES. - Peaches

I'm feeling random today. Went into town and I used Grammie's niiice car to do it. :P. It drove real niiice. ;). I think, maybe, just maybe, I'm hooked on driving it!! :D WooT!

Going to write/draw/crochet/watch TV - in other words, typical ME stuff. ;). You all have a great night. :D

Yeah.

2008-12-17T11:29:00.000-08:00

Me and Mel won't be able to chat on YIM for a while since she will be at home.....no Internet....really, almost, non-existent. :(. Miss her already!!!! And it's only been a few hours.

I thought eight weeks without Supernatural would surely DO ME IN, but this is so much worse!! :(

Alright, today I am going into town later, otherwise I'm just hanging around at home. Not having a good week. The meeting yesterday went like...bad. So, I'm not getting a job anytime soon, I suck and the world is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not even aware of how much it's missing out not having me employed. JK. :P. lol.

I'll be okay. Everything will work out in the end. Still, having a bad week. Nite, Krissy, Mel and others have helped to make me laugh and feel better - but now Mel's GONE from the world of the Inter-Web. :( :( :(. At least, for fourteen days. *sigh* .She's six hours away and neither of us have a way to SEE each other. :(. Sad times, indeed. *sigh*

Today

2008-12-15T23:49:00.000-08:00

Today was one of those days...you know.

End of story.

Nite, World.

HAVE a GREAT WEEK!!!****

2008-12-15T13:11:00.000-08:00

Okay

2008-12-15T13:05:00.000-08:00

Going in to talk with the College Advisor in less than an hour. *nervous*. I hope it goes well.

Meeting with some people from the Department of Labor tomorrow. Trying to get me a job. *sigh*.

Things going c-cold. Lot-s-sa s-snow!! *burr* . (wait a minute, isn't a bur those things that get caught in your clothes...you know, the plant thing?!) /:). Hm.

Later, World.

Made a new art post on my Seasoned Simile Axiom blog. ;). :).

Just A Quizz

2008-12-08T01:00:00.001-08:00

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio.
The West
The South
Boston
North Central
The Inland North
Philadelphia
The Northeast
What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

O-oa-kaay!! Rii-iight-ie

2008-12-06T00:21:00.000-08:00

I'm having another all-nighter. *Rubs tired eyes**yawns* I am exhausted, but just cannot sleep.

Third day in a row I haven't been able to sleep before early morning hours. So tired. Must go to bed. *Yawn*

I'm almost done with the scarf. Surfing the web to help my tired mind decide that sleep IS the best recourse.

Must. Sleep. Soon.

NIGHT, World. *Yawn*.

Okay, so, not so bad

2008-12-05T14:53:00.000-08:00

Got the tax information.

Got out of the house for a little bit.

Got more reviews for my story.

Got a little bit of the cash due me..from Nat-han.

So. Okay, not so bad after all. ;).

42

2008-12-05T11:35:00.000-08:00

42!!

Just Another Day In Paradise

2008-12-05T11:25:00.000-08:00

I've been really on edge the last few days. Bet no one can guess *why*, huh, Mel.

Anyway, I think I'm gonna try and get out of the house as much as possible today and tomorrow, even if it's just to walk around town. I need to get out of here for a while. I'm just antsy and anxious - not so much today as I was yesterday though, which is good - and I need a change of atmosphere.

I don't have any money left so I won't be going anywhere ... like, the restaurant. So, I'll probably just wander around town checking out stores and going window shopping. 'Cause that's so fun. Nat-han is supposed to get paid today so hopefully he will pay me back - I need him to so that I can pay my Internet bill. *Bites lip*. *Winces* Ouch. Okay and that didn't even HELP.

Ugh.

Must go. Will return. Post more about life, the universe and everything later on. 42, people! 42!! ;). It's all good. ;). :D :D :D

Goodnight World

2008-12-04T23:28:00.000-08:00

Am exhausted. Must sleep. Goodnight.

I'm just finishing up a few more rows on my latest scarf - I'll post a picture when I'm finished with it. ;).

I'm also re-watching and re-watching Psych vids. :P. I like the music and I like the clips and ... well, let's face it. ;). I LIKE Psych! lol.

You all have a really great night. *Yawn*. Goodnight. ;).

TOO CHARMING THREE DUET TRIO...What??

2008-12-04T20:36:00.000-08:00

Today Was Okay

2008-12-04T17:57:00.000-08:00

I ended up driving Grammie back from Sandpoint. Yeah. Then I spent a couple of hours on the phone. *Insert Sarcasm* I had fun.

OooH! I got more chapters written on Nirvana, more written on Incongruous and I decided that my story If God Made Pineapples Then.. is going to be a one-shot. Every sequel chapter I try to construct has fallen like a house of cards on a windy day. Pretty, but ultimately useless and... well. ... ..let's face it. The cards are down. :P Anywhoo. I'm tired.

Watched Jumper again today. I think I'm going to relax with a little Supernatural and get some crocheting done for Christmas.

Still no snow and it's the fourth of December, Huh. What does that mean? It must be weird...'cause at mom's there's snow. *Shrug* Whatever.

I'm just glad the roads were brightly lit and clear while I was driving today!! YEAH!

Tomorrow...NOT Today!

2008-12-03T18:38:00.000-08:00

I am going to go in with Grammie to the hospital tomorrow, because I was still unable to get through to that lady...and because I really, REALLY don't feel comfortable with Grammie driving anywhere by herself. Especially on those heavy pain meds. :(. I don't like her driving, plain and simple, while she's on those things.

They make her different.

All of the pain medications make her different. She's not the same person when she's on them and I never EVER want to be on pain meds again if it makes me like that. Not cool.

I have written a lot today. Trying to figure out how to get the second chapter of If God Made Pineapples Then... is causing me some problems since I had no story in mind when I started writing it. I just wanted a fluff piece involving the great fruit that is pineapple. *Sigh*. I give myself impossible tasks. Now I have to figure out a meaning for my story and write it out before I can end it...Yeah. Easy. Hmphff.

Other than that, I'm almost done with my fourth chapter of Nirvana. I'm really enjoying that story. ;). Not sure just how well I am doing with it though. :(. Reviews are pretty good so that's something. *Sigh*.

There were no new jobs again today. :(.

I miss Melissie. :(.

*Hugs* Mel.

That's it for now....*Sigh*....

Okkaaaay. How do I FEEL?

2008-12-03T15:26:00.000-08:00

HONESTLY, I DON'T GET IT!

I've been trying to get ahold of that lady all freaking day long and the phone has been busy the WHOLETIMEANDI'MGETTINGREALLYREALLYREALLYREALLYTIREDOFIT!!!

*Whew* Rant over. Okay. I'm better now. ;). No worries. I'm sure I'll get through to her eventually. She doesn't have call waiting so it's harder to get her on the phone...she calls a lot of people. Totally understandable considering what she's going through, but I need the money. I'm beginning to feel just a tinsy bit desperate here....

Christmas is almost here...*Low enthusiasm jump for minimal joy* Yeah. :I k.

I hope that things go better this next week. Grammie is going in for her checkup tomorrow so I will be going with her...should prove interesting. *sigh*. I'm doing okay. Really. I promise. *Sigh*.

I finished a third chapter of Nirvana, wrote a drabble and wrote the first section of my VERY FIRST Psych fic. Yeah!!! ;). Supernatural is going to be back in just a few short weeks - like six. . .yeeaaah.

Post more later...I guess. Later, World. *Hugs* Mel, you rock! TTYL mom. ;).

JamesRodayVid!AwesomeNessInVidding

2008-12-03T12:26:00.000-08:00

This is a really awesome Psych vid!!

THIS IS AN AMAZING VIDEO!

2008-12-02T19:53:00.000-08:00

Okay...Here's how it went down

2008-12-02T16:17:00.000-08:00

Alright, so I'm reading along, enjoying my angst-fic when All Of A Sudden...WHAM! It hits me. :D. I'm actually not depressed!! lol!! This week....

Anyway. I think that I feel better every time I go to work for that lady because then I get out of the house. Actually, even if I just go into town and spent half an hour walking around doing nothing I always feel a little bit better about life. Hmmm. Still. I need work then I won't be moping around the house for months at a time.

OMGOSH! Months. It's been MONTHS....Okay, maybe I still have a few loose tears. :P. Just kidding. I'm still happy...just not about the *points to proceeding words*.

My Grampa just got home from work. He's not going to be happy to find out *I* didn't go to work today!! lol. He's kinda like that...but I still luve the dude to death!! :D :D

Eerm.

Nat-han stopped by today. He borrowed some more money and downloaded his "monetary woes" to me for twenty minutes before taking off again to go to work. *Shakes Head* He was in the negative in his bank account so...I paid the difference. Dude. I suck. Everyone and I literally mean EVERYONE has been telling me not to do that...but what was I suppose to do?!! He's going down for Drill this week and he wouldn't of had any money!!

Speaking of money. I have to do something. My fund are too low! God, if you read blogs, HELP!!

*Ahem*. On a brighter subject. :D. I now know that Nirvana will have a sequel! Yeah! ;D. Aaand it will probably involve another crossover, but I'm not sure which *Scratches Head*. Several ideas have popped into my ever-active brain and I'm going to have to sort through to see which will work out better.

*sigh* My Grammie is starting to look better, but she slept ALL DAY LONG today...that's not like her and it has me worried. That woman wouldn't sleep all day if her life depended on it....bad choice of words, but you get my drift.

I really worry about her...and Grampa too! And Matt-hew! And Nat-han and -Hold that thought, the phone is ringing.! - Okay, it was my mom.

And I have to get off of here anyway and quit posting because I'm making dinner. :P. Pasta with tomatoes, veggies and meat. . . ugh. I am so sick of meat.

I think I'll gag now, excuse me.

*gag*

Okay. Moment over. I'm good now.

So, you all have a really great day!! I'll try to post more later assuming something comes up. I checked, but there were no new places to send in applications. Maybe tomorrow someone will call me back. *Fingers Crossed*

You know, I wrote a horror story a loooooo-oooooo-ooooo-oooong time ago when I was in high school and it had this skeleton ghost thingy that crossed it's fingers. Hmm. Surprised that I still remember that!! :D.

My memory isn't all mush. :P. lol. Have a great day ya'all!! :D :D

Blessing Or Curse...Will I Thank Her Later???

2008-12-02T10:11:00.000-08:00

Okay, my lady I'm working for just called me - I think I'm really beginning to like her after all. :P - and she said that I can't come in to work today because something came up. :(. I was really looking forward to getting paid, but one of the things about this kind of work is STUFF...as in REALITY...tends to push everything out of it's way and walk stubbornly all over our plans. *Heavy Sigh*.

I'll probably spend a significant portion of today calling back businesses, dropping off more applications and running around town to see if any of the restaurants are hiring. :(. Typical...fruitless stuff. *Sigh*.

BUT I am concinved that today will be a good day!! After all....I...Um, they....erm...Huh. No reason to explain. I just "think" it. :P. Anywhoo, later for now.

Today's the Day....4 More Sleep!!!!

2008-12-02T09:48:00.000-08:00

I had cheerios for breakfast. Slept in. It's almost ten. *Sigh*. I have an hour before I leave for work and I still have a RFA sequel to read and a show to take. *Rolls Eyes* AND all I can think about this morning for some odd reason is Sarah Gray and the Children of The Serpant Gate - wonderful book for anyone who hasn't read!!! :D

I hope today will go good. The lady I'm working for said yesterday that she wanted me to stay a little bit later today so I am probably going to do that. I okay with that, but Grammie still isn't looking or sounding too hot. Actually, it sounds like she's coming down with something. NOT GOOD.

I hope to get more written on Incongruous and Nirvana later today. ;). I already have several chapters of Nirvana planned out in my head so writing it shouldn't take quite so long. ;). :).

You have a great day, World!!! *Hugs* Mel. ;). Hope you aren't too tired!!

I'm Ruined

2008-12-02T01:45:00.000-08:00

I just spent the last...five hours or so reading a really great story. It is now almost two in the morning...and I work today.

I went to sign off and well...the story has a prequel and two sequels. I'm ruined. There is just no way that I can go to sleep without reading them!!! Can't happen.

Later, World. PSYCHFIC.COM rocks!!!! :D

Back from Work

2008-12-01T15:08:00.000-08:00

Work went well.

Grammie's still not doing too good.

I just looked at my bank account. *Shudders* It ain't pretty, people

I NEED A REAL JOB!!! I put in some more applications. :(. But nothing seems to be working. How do you turn the job machine ON. ???.

Well, hope that you all are having a great day! Poste more later. ;).

Okay, Totally NOT Cool

2008-12-01T09:51:00.000-08:00

Feeling a bit like a ... dk.

My Grammie is looking awful this morning - sounding horribly weak too - but I FINALLY got called in to work for that lady and I need the money....like, BAD. So, I'm going in, but I feel horrible leaving my Grammie in this state. *Bites Nails*.

I'm leaving her the number for where I'll be working and I'll be back in a heartbeat if she needs me for ANYTHING, but I still feel bad about leaving. My Grampa went back to work today - first day he's been back since the heart attack.

Well.

I have to take a shower, get dressed and go. I have less than an hour before I need to be up at that ladies house. It's only going to be for about three hours today, but I'm okay with that. I'll ALMOST be able to pay off my Internet bill for the month with that much. :P.

Yes. Money is short this season. *Sigh*. But at least I've already got all my Christmas presents done and finished and "squared away". I totally hate that phrase. Ughegh. My dad used it all the time. Anywhoo, got to go. Post more later!!! Wish me luck!!

Nirvana

2008-12-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

Chapter two of Nirvana is up. I am SO loving this story!! Nite, world.

Ugh. It's two in the morning and I go to work today. *Rolls Eyes* I picked a sweeeet time to stay up all night. *facepalm*. Hope you all have a great night/day/week/whatever! :D. *Hugs*, Mel. :).

Nirvana Again

2008-11-30T20:06:00.000-08:00

Chapter one of Nirvana is up. Chapter twenty-ish of Incongruous is over!! Yeah. Now it's just the going back and totally fixing it up that I have left to do. *Sigh*.

I WORK TOMORROW! WOOOHOOO!

Currently watching Without A Paddle - love it! ;). :D :D :D :D

Writing about Nirvana

2008-11-30T15:55:00.000-08:00

Writing a new fic idea. Dean Winchester meets Daniel Jackson. wOOt! :D I am calling it Nirvana. :D. :D.

You all have a great day. I'm exhausted, but otherwise doing well. ;). *Hugs* ya'all!! :D

FINISHED

2008-11-29T23:48:00.000-08:00

JUST finished, it's just after midnight. Or right before. NS. Am exhausted. Can't think straight. Head hurts. Neck hurts. BRAIN hurts.

Must never write on a deadline again. *Note to self*.

You all have a good one! I'm gonna watch one last Equilibrium clip on youtube and then go to SLEEP! Hopefully until midnight tomorrow night. :P. Yeah, right. lol.

I need work. Send supportive thoughts my way, guys!! ;). Miss you all. Night, World. Post more tomorrow. Must sleep.... or else... will..... *ZZzzzZZZzzZZZzz*

Writing

2008-11-29T12:37:00.000-08:00

Writing. Writing. Writing. Writing. Writing!!!

BLEACH

2008-11-29T00:00:00.000-08:00

Okay, I juust finished a run through season one of Bleach. Kathy let me borrow for the week. WHEW! It was one intense and great ride!!

I now have a new show that I'm a fan of. :P. Bleach is perfectly awesome because it's just as much about the plot as it is about the characters. I love that!

The art is wonderfully done, the storyline itself is just unique and awesome. Great show!! lol.

:P. There's even a glasses wearing, red head who just happens to be a lesbian. :P. lol!! Anyway, good day today.

It's late though so I'm tired now. *Sigh*.

I'll post more tomorrow!! ;). Have a great weekend, World! *Hugs* Mel!!! *Smile* :).

Meals

2008-11-26T19:21:00.000-08:00

I just finished a looot of cooking. I made...lost of stuff and I am now exhausted! Totally exhausted. ;).

Signing off for the night. Later, folks!!

Watched Get Smart and Hancock last night. ROFLMAO! They were both great. They restored my faith in movies again. :D. After Supernatural I thought that there couldn't be anything to compete. Hancock proved me wrong. That movie IS AWESOME!!!

Racial Slurrs

2008-11-26T19:12:00.000-08:00

Okay, this has got to stop. End of story.

Nat-han said another racial joke that ended in a hanging. I am not going to stand for this any longer. It's wrong and it is something that I will NOT put up with! He needs to grow up and get a brain already.

It is wrong for him to say things like that and he is old enough to know that. He is also very aware of my feelings on the matter and still he feels the need to spout these "jokes" around me.

I WILL NOT TOLERATE IT ANY LONGER BECAUSE HE DOES NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY THINGS LIKE THAT ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE!!!

*IS unhappy* :(.

2008-11-26T18:38:00.001-08:00

Today was busy. I'm still busy. Post what happened later. Night for now, world.

Movies and Other Stuff

2008-11-25T17:47:00.000-08:00

I'm watching The Day After Tomorrow. Love that movie. :D. ;).

Went to town, bought all my Christmas gifts. Am not totally broke. Dk what I'm going to do about paying my internet bill this month. *Sigh*. I'll figure it out. Remember that post waay back about "God IS real"...well, I'm gonna choose to believe that's the case and something will work out for me before something horrible happens. ;).

You all have a great one. *glomps*. :D

lol.

2008-11-25T13:04:00.000-08:00

Okay. Well, I am going into town. Grammie and Grampa JuuuuST got in so she's back and looking really, really...huh. Sick? Like she just got done with major surgery. :P. Which, she did. lol.

Anyway, I have to go into town and boy some food for Thanksgiving. And get milk, pickles, green olives and stuff. lol. ;). Ah. Yogurt, can't forget the yogurt.

Now, if only I can remember to bring that bag for the groceries. :P. I bought several of those bags so that I don't need to use paper or plastic from the stores. lol. I got the bags and can't remember to USE them. lol. I am so great. :P. Going...green. lol.

Anyway, I also have to go around town and see if anyone is hiring. Sometimes they only post it on the doors of the businesses - although, I already know that no one is hiring - I've gone around all the businesses (Did that when I first lost my job) and all the places that I could work at...well, lets just say they were "overstaffed". It's a sickness. Because there are so many young people in this town that need work. Not cool so now I'm still looking, but I'm going to go around town anyway. You just never know.

So, then I have the library that I need to go to. AND the bookstore. And the post office. Hmmm. Yeah, then I'm going to just leave it at that. I won't go out to eat today. :P. Don't have the money.

lol. I think that life is funny! :D

*Hugs* Mel, have a good one.

TTYL. Mom. ;). Try to find that blanket for me, pls. Matt-hew said that he knew where it was. . .yeah.

Been working on my scarf. And Hat-thing. *Sigh*. Luv me some Supernatural. Thursday is Thanksgiving. Have a Happy Thanksgiving. ;).

today

2008-11-25T11:49:00.000-08:00

i was woke this morning by a phonecall that was bad. no work again. i want work.

Mel made things better, but it still sucks that i don't have work again.

lol.

2008-11-24T11:05:00.000-08:00

Well, my Aunt Terri is the best Aunt on the planet and we have been having a lot of fun today!

Dude, she's awesome...:D*GIANTGRIN*. Too fun

We spent a couple of hours oggling at stuff in Target to waste time while we waited for my Grampa's tests to finish. We just have the car wash left and then we are going back to the hospital to pick him up. Yeah. :D.

Poste more later. ;). Today has been awesome-ness!! AND I bought Nat-han's Christmas present. lol. ;). :D.

We are at the Happy Hippo Car Wash which just happens to be THE BEST CAR WASH IN THE WORLD, in my Aunt's ho *Humble Opinion. ;). I agree, it's pretty...well....yeah. Great.

At Car Wash

2008-11-24T11:00:00.001-08:00

Had fun today. At the carwash. Got to go.

Kathy - :D

2008-11-23T16:59:00.000-08:00

Today I was feeling a little overwhelmed by things, but I didn't know that I was feeling that way. :P. I thought I was getting along just fine and then Kathy called - she's a good friend of mine - and I told her about all the things that had happened recently. LOL. And right away she said, "Okay, I'm coming over. You don't need to be alone right now". lol. And she did.

We didn't even really talk that much, she was just THERE and it's weird, but it did make me feel better. Today has been a great day and her prescence helped me to not feel quite so down. Hm. Had no idea that being around people was like that. WOW! Can't believe that just came out of my keyboard...hmmmm. Anyway, I think I'll make a point of getting out more and visiting my friends more often. ;). Maybe then I won't post so many *CRY* Posts. :P.

lol.

I'm at a restaurant eating my dinner - french fries, Mt. Dew and a Turkey sandwich. :D :D . It's good! I brought my laptop, obviously, and I'm going to try and get at least another thousand words done before I leave. The deadlines coming so fast!! I don't know if I'm going to have time to finish this novel in a day!!! NEEEK! :(.

I'll keep you all updated. ;). Later, World!!

Oh, YAWn YeAH.

2008-11-22T23:03:00.000-08:00

*Yawn*. I almost forgot. I started crocheting my first scarf of the season. First scarf since last Christmas. OMGosh. *FAINTS*. I just realized that it's been an entire YEAR since I moved up here - well, it will be in Jan. Same diff. *GOES BACK TO FAINT POSITION*

Woah. Hm. I'll post a picture of my project when it's finished. I'm going to try my best and make a Metallicar accessory of some kind. ;). NIGHT. Luvs ya all!!! :D

ALMOST HALF-WAY

2008-11-22T22:57:00.000-08:00

I've got over twenty-four-thousand words written. Almost half-way done and I still have two days to go.

Basically, I have to write twenty pages of tightly packed descriptions and dialogue to get that much written. :P. *Is exhausted*. I'm almost done with the third story of the weekend. ;). It's all good. I'm tired. Going to sleep. Night world. *YAWN!!*

Current Background

2008-11-22T22:14:00.000-08:00

MY CURRENT DESKTOP BACKGROUND. ;). Goodness comes in small ... cookies. :P.

FRIENDS

2008-11-22T21:44:00.000-08:00

I just got the greatest e-mail from my soul-pal, Melissie. She is, of course, the sun in the sky; the laptop to my dvd; the axiom to my absurdity. :P. You get the idea. Opposites that compliment each other and can't live without each other. ;). My analogies tell our tale. :D :D . ;)

Anyway, Just wanted to say. I *HEART* you, Mel. ;). *Glomps for the ages!!!!*

JENSEN ACKLES SHOUT OUT

2008-11-22T21:26:00.001-08:00

Okay, first of all, just because I favor Jensen Ackles does NOT mean I don't like Jared Padalecki...'cause the dude's awesome!! Both of them are. However. Sadly. This particular post is a shout-out to my man Jensen. ;).

lol. I was surfing the boards over on the CW forum and I found someone with the username: JensensTheMan :D How awesome is that!!???? lol.

Anywhoo, the man is beyond talented in the acting department. Seriously, his performance gets me every time.

AND, while I'm not a huuuge Jared Padalecki follower...I luv the dude himself. I just don't dig his character that much. *Shrug*. I LOVE the dude though - sidetracked. Sorry. Ahem! This is a shout-out for JENSEN ACKLES, everybody.

You got love for the man? Comment about it! ... pls. :P.

My Freckles...Ahem, I Mean, MY Leslie!!! :D

2008-11-22T16:44:00.000-08:00

This is the model that we (Mel mostly and me too) decided looked the most like Leslie Kane who is Mel's OC from those great - soon to be - shipper fics!! :D Saslie is so Sweet!! :D :D

She is so adorable. :D. I dig the "brooding""sad of life" look she has. ;). Awesome for Leslie, imho! :).

Today

2008-11-22T14:36:00.000-08:00

Okay, I got a little more written on my story, but Nat-han came over and I ended up talking a joking and procrastinating. :P. lol.

Check out the music on Mel's blog. Ever since I first logged over there this morning I've had a browser open and her music playing. My own, lovely radio station with ONLY THE BEST! ;). lol. :D I love it.

I've also been listening to a lot of Theory Of A Dead Man...most specifically, Bad Girlfriend - which I love. Vids not too bad either. :P. lol. :). :D.

Post more later! Peace. Out. ;). :).

Happy Ending

2008-11-22T11:13:00.000-08:00

Carry On My Wayward Son by Kansas is just...well, it is the story of my Winchester boys. *Weary Sigh*. I want them to have the elusive happy ending so BADLY. I just hope that when the show finally ends they don't go out like Stargate did. An open ending is just too depressing in their line of work. :(. IMHO.

You all have an awesome Saturday!!! Happy Sabbath for ya'all who go to church...everyone else, enjoy your weekend. ;). :D. Almost Thanksgiving. Which, of course, means F.P.I. Patrol for me. :P. Got to make sure those Pies aren't...guilty of anything. lol. Great, now I'm having American Pie flashbacks. *Washes out brain with mouthwash -- I keep this up I'm gonna run out of mouthwash!*. :P. You all have a good one!

Metalica

2008-11-22T11:00:00.000-08:00

Okaay. I am now, officially, a Metalica fan. I always liked the music on movies and on SN, but now I'm a fan of the group!! wOOt!

Erm....*Shuffles feet**Blinks* Sorry, mom. :D. But they're just SO AWESOME!!

Today's Background

2008-11-22T10:22:00.001-08:00

This is my laptop wallpaper for today. ;). It changes often - sometimes several times a day. :P. I'm just like that!!

WooT!

2008-11-22T10:14:00.000-08:00

Okay, so, it's another day. Not much happening over here. I'm going to take it easy today - well, I've got a list of things to do, but they're all pretty easy...just time consuming. :P. :D.

I'm feeling much better now that I have SOMETHING to do on the weekdays. *happy sigh*. Let us just hope that it sticks and that I get a good job from somewhere...soon!!

I just watched the greatest Rodney McKay episode. I love David Hewlett. :D :D. It was called 'Brain Storm' and it was wonderful! I may watch it again later today.

My Grammie is sounding a lot better and she is feeling better, but she is still at the hospital and she's still not 100% just yet. Could be a while.

Can't believe that it is almost Thanksgiving AGAIN! It was JUUUST Christmas....like, a week ago! :P

I got another two chapters written on my story and I started another one that I will be working on today. I only have three more days until the contest ends I still have about thirty eight THOUSAND WORDS to go before I reach the 'winner' mark. *Sigh* But I'll get it done. In my haste to finish my story with enough words...well, I think I might have done a bad thing.

You see, I've been shipping a lot lately. Don't know what in the world is wrong with me, but ever since the Sam/Leslie thing I'm seeing ships EVERYWHERE...what's the ship equivalent of a plotbunny? 'Cause these ships are persistent, they won't go away and thy beg to be written about. :P. Or at least noted. *Sigh*. Anyway, I shipped two of my vampires in my original story that I'm working on.

They don't even really like each other so it's not a true ship. More like a shipper version of a "one-nighter". :D. It did give me some great insights into the characters though that I probably would have never gotten had I NOT written that section. Still, it's going to complicate things, but in a good, character-plot-revealing way!! :D

I hope that all is well and right in your worlds. I'm getting off in a few. Just have to do the rounds and check the sites, but then I'm off so that I can get cracking on the writing. ;). Have a good one, guys!! *Hugs* :D

tah-day....was

2008-11-21T17:16:00.000-08:00

Okay, well...erm, today went better than I thought that it would. ;). Pay's not good, but it's a lot better than nothing. :D. It makes me happy to have something to do OUTSIDE of the house. :D. So, I'm happy with it. ;).

Nat-han's weird.

He is also AWESOME!! He brought me Walle and I am now going to go and watch it, but I wanted to post first and let the world know that all is well and right. Mel, if you get this before you call....give me a few hours because I'm going to be watching a movie. :P. Unless it's uber-important. Actually, I'll e-mail you. ;). :).

Okaaay. So, Jensen Ackles is PERFECT. I just re-watched the last episode and it was absolutely amazing!! How that man hasn't won, like, a mazillion award is totally beyond me. :).

*Waves* I'm off for now. ;). Post more later!

Oh. Yeah. I have almost three days left and still another forty thousand words to go on my novel. *facepalm*. Wish me Good Luck, World. :D ;).

Have a good one! *Hugs* Mel. :D :D

Okay...For REALS

2008-11-21T00:28:00.000-08:00

Alright, NOW I'm really, for sure, going to bed. *Sniffle*. I just had to check the boards and facebook one last time. Maybe I'll run by Twitter before I sign off for good. *Sigh*. My Dean Is So Brave.

:,(.

All of the earlier scenes from episodes leading up to tonight now have new Dean Meaning. In ITGPSW...when they go into the art room and there are all those masks. *Sob*. What Dean must have been remembering!!! The "rack"...*Sob*. What a horrible life he is forced to live. I bet he wanted Uriel to kill him...to obliterate him beyond death. *SOB!!!!* Okay, I'm going to be okay. *sniffle* Just give me a few years. *cries*.

For reals, though, I'll be okay. ;). Just expressing my...well...TEARS of angst. :P. Perfectly normal given what I have just seen and learned.

Okay. Work tomorrow. I AM GOING TO BED...if it's the last thing I do. Hmph. Nite, fellas. ;). Luv ya alls!!! :D.

Did HE???

2008-11-20T23:57:00.000-08:00

Did Dean torture his father in hell? The idea is floating around the fanbase and I'm totally hoping that DIDN'T happen. It'd of broke Dean's heart into a million shattered pieces - impossible to fix. He looked up to his dad so much. *SOBS*.

I have work in the morning. *Sniffle*. I'm going to bed now. *Sob*. You all have a great day tomorrow. *Cries some more*. Hope I wake up...I misplaced my alarm clock. *Sigh*. *Facepalm*. *Sniffle*.

*Hugs* To my people. ;). Later!!

HOW I FEEL

2008-11-20T23:19:00.001-08:00

Those first two lines are how how I feel tonight. *Sniffle*. :(. :(. :(.

Lyrics | Nine Days lyrics - Absolutely lyrics

I Apologize

2008-11-20T22:18:00.001-08:00

I'm sorry for the spelling errors below. *Sniffle*. I was watching the show and typing in the dark so I was typing as I watched...so, there are spelling errors. :P. *Sob*.

THIRTY YEARS!!!!!!!Oh. Dean.

*Sorry, the end on the last post sounds like I'm...I have no idea, but I was just very, very upset about what I had just learned about Dean Winchester. *

HELL'S ANGELS

2008-11-20T22:01:00.000-08:00

It’s about to start!!!! :D I’m so excited.

Here we go!! :D :D :D

NIIICE FLASHBACK. :D Anna is HOT.

I hope that Uriel doesn’t do anything to Dean. DEAN BETTER STILL BE SAFE AND ALIVE BY THE END OF THIS EPISODE.

“I’ll kill her gentle”:.

“As a matter of fact we are”

“She is far from innocent”

“Sorry, get yourself another one” lol.

KILL THE RUBY, KILL THE RUBY!

NO, not my MISHA! Watch out guys. GO CAS!! WHOOT. Took Sam out with no My CAS JUST DISAPEARED. WHAT THE FUCK!???? THEY JUST. IF MY CAS IS DEAD. *Dude, when the light appeared and Cas went away I screamed so loud*.

OOOOH. EEEEEWWWWWWW.

Bloody Mirror. I don’t believe her. Anna knows what she’s doing and that is so not cool. Something bad is on the horizon and I can feel ti!!!

I think my boys are in big trouble.

Demon Racism.

MY PANI ROOM. Love it.

Wow. Dean just said “Thanks, Ruby.” I think I am dead…and I’m in one weird heaven.

Wow. Dean just talked to Ruby. Huh. He seems to almost trust her. I don’t get it. Dean confusing reality with porn. Lol. So him. I don’t believe Anna…why did the angels say that. I don’t believe her…she must know something. The Winchesters know. Ooooh! BOBBY!!!!!! Erem, or at least his house. :P.

Pam. My beautiful, wonderful, sexy Pam!!! She’s back. :PD :D. lol. “Perky little ass of yours” Love that. ;).

Dean had a BIGT GRIN. Love those. :D :D

Maybe Lilith wears plastic so she can look demony. :P. lol. :D

Woah!??? Hypnosis for Anna? Weird. LOVE THAT SHOT THOUGH!!! Awesome. What are we going to learn. What does this all mean? Get us some answers Pam.

!!!!

Anna is freaking out, why???? What? Powers. More powers. RUBY IS LOCKED OUTSIDE??? What the world. Omgosh, she just knocked dean out. LOL. She knocked Dean down. Woah, she’s got a punch.

I don’t trust her….

She remembers what??

“Who are you?:

She’s an angel??? WTFH?????? WTF???? She’s an angel????

*Commercials suck*….but they make my SN possible. :D

Dude, she’s an angel. How come everyone predicted that??? I mean, why? Why is she an angel and better yet, why is she stuck inside a human body? Is she a fallen angel…..a demon? Or is she a …. WTF??? *Scratches Head*. She’s an ANGEL….SHE’S an angel….she’s AN angel….nope. No matter how I think about it, it just doesn’t make sense to me.

WHY would an angel lose it’s memory and live as a normal human for so long unless she is part of the “Endgame”??? Is she a demon plant or a god plant or what??? Does she play a big part in the apocalypse or is it a coincidence that they ran into her and that this manifested when it did? Is she an angel that lost her wings???? WTFH?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

This is one of those episodes I’m going to have to watch and re-watch a few times - I can feel it. :P.

WHY IS NO ONE ON THIS SHOW NOT LIKE THE OTHERS???/ Foxhole? Hmmm. Angel boss.

Why does she have a death sentence??
Why did she disobey. I DON’T TRUST HER…I RIPPED OUT MY GRACE, what does that mean? “God’s little power ranger”/

Why does heaven want her dead? That’s the stupidest thing I’ve heard in a really long time. She’s no the only fallen angel, right?

OoooH! Getting her Grace back. Lol. FIND HER GRACE. :D :D :D

How is grace a physical thing.

WTF. He just happened to spot that. I think that this episode is ridiculous.

OMGOSH! I think that is just stupid. :P. :P.

Ruby is not got my vote. Ruby is apologizing. How weird is that? I don’t trust her…I don’t want them to trust her…I don’t like the dynamic in this episode.

ALASTAIR HAS THE KNIFE.

Learning some darkness on the Samster. What are they talking about. What does he have to do to “tone up his abilities”???? I am so worried right now.

OOOh! I see a Dean and a Anna *Starts to sing* I think it’s the sex scene. :D

Dean totally breaks my heart. Nice moment here where he’s asking her questions. She doesn’t know why he was saved. I LOVE JENSEN ACKLES. Chocolate cake. Lol. I think I like Anna in this scene. She craved the human emotions. Hmm. Does that mean that Cas is doomed to fall too?????

Okay, this scene is making more sense now…I trust Kripke. Everything will make sens. JENSEN is my man!!!! “I can relate” Oh. Awwwwwwwwwww~! Sam interrupts them. Lol. Guess that wasn’t the sex bit after all. :P. :d.

Love me some Impala moments. :D WOW That car is starting to get really full. I love that - an angel and a demon sitting in the back seat. “Dude, reality”.

“You call this reality” I LOVE Dean.

OOOHhhh. Nice shot with them by the Grace-Tree. :D

Very touching moment. Anna touching the tree. I love that.

Someone took her grace. Great. This just keeps getting weirder and weirder by the moment.. I mean. Grace being a real, tangible thing???? I don’t get it. And if she does put it “back into herself” then what?? I mean, she obviously was dissatisfied being an angel so that isn’t going to be good….but at least she’s going to be alive.

LOL.. Poor Pam. I just realized that she’s now been attacked by an angel and a demon. :P. Guess she should’ve sticked with the humans. ;).

I don’t like having these girls along with my boys. I mean. It’s just…I don’t like it. L. Sam, for one, is taken!!! Leslie Kane!!! How can he just go off and forget all about the love of his life!???? She’s probably in her hometown, downing some beers and missing her man…and where’s Sam? He’s GETTING IT ON WITH A FREAKIN’ DEMON! Shame.On.Him.

The Grace-Tree was so pretty!!!!! I cannot wait to see what will happen. :D. Dean especially has been so great so far in this episode. I loved that very real moment between him and Ann. Just beautiful. Jensen Ackles stole my heart!! J

I really hope that they put a lot more Impala into this episode. ;). I’ve been missing the car something awful!! *Hugs Metallicar*. J J.

I love that. Heading to the Panic Room forever. Oooh. The angels are talking again. WATCH OUT DEAN! You can’t go back to Hell. NooooOOOOooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. He can’t go back there!!!! That explains how she knew about the angel-killing weapons.

Another Dean and Anna scene. *Squueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*. :D. I love these scenes between these two. WOW! Insight. Those two are so similar! Wow. Oh! Dean, my poor Dean. The Anels were talking about what he did in Hell. What did he do? What does she know? Whew. It wasn’t his fault. Oh. DEAN. Oh. That’s so great! He’s not alone. You know it, Dean. You aren’t alone!!!

Lol. Sammy got the demon. Dean got the angel. Lol. Back in season one Dean said that Sammy had a thing for the bad chick. Stealing his best line. Lol. I lov those two together. Lol. In the car!!! Lol. Ooooh! I think….WOW!!!!! There is never going to be a scene to rival this scene. I think that Sammy has a run for his money in the hotness department. Dean chose a MUCH better person to share his time with. I am totally into this scene. They are so great togher. Talking, not talking, doesn’t matter. Niiiiiice. 8Happy Sigh*. Okay, I just about fainted right there. Arh. There’s his scar. OMGOSH, she put her hand over his scar. Oh, they are so wonderful. Lol. Hand on the window. I love it!

I ma now so very, very, very, very, very HAPPY with Kripke.

Oooh. Ruby watching Sam sleep. Can’t spell good. She’s burning the hex bag? What in the world? What is she doing? What is Ruby doing? ALASTAIR???!!!

Ruby is going to do something stupid, sisn’t she. . .she shouldn’t have. She’s going to turn over the angel.

Well, she DID get hem into it…I can see why she would want to get them out of it. But I don’t trust her at all. Why doesn’t Alstair just kill her. WWHY DOESN’T ANYONE JUST KILL HER ALREADY!????? Loll DEAN IN THE ALONE WITH THE Uriel. Scary. Oh, thank goodness. He’s dreaming. Cas likes my Dean. *DIES OF HAPPY*. J. Uriel has her grace. OMGOSH! Uriel has her grace!!!

“angel cake” is now Dean’s official cake. :D. :D. :D.

Don’t send Dean back. Dean can be replaced???? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Don’t hurt him. He’s inviting Uriel to kill him. *SQUEEE*. Don’t tempt him Dean!!! What did Uriel mean by that.

DON’T HURT MY DEAN, URIEL. DON’T DO IT!

Wow. What an intense torture scene. Ruby being tortured by Alastair. LOOOOOOooooong time in coming. Very niiice. I’m not one for torture - usually it squicks me - but this time. ;). I feel horrible for the hosts body. She isn’t telling them where the angel is. It’s for her own life though. Okay. No change there. She’s going to lead the way to the angel and to the Winchesters. No!!!

I love it. A brother scene - wow, that didn’t last long. Dean is NOT okay, don’t care what he has to say about it. What is going on. ??? .

DEAN, what did you dod???

Dean, why did you? OMGOSH, WHAT DID THAT URIEL DO TO MY DEAN TO MAKE HIM DO THAT. Noooooo. How could they do something like that. Killing Sam or Anna to make Dean do what needs to be done. I am….woah, that was a great Anna/Dean kiss. I love those two together.

NOOOOO. Cas is looking a little . Broken Dean. Ah. Okay, commercial is on so now I can explain.

Cas looks like he doesn’t know if he’s doing the right thing, but he knows what will happen to him should he NOT follow the orders - basically what happened to “Anna” - and he’s not willing to take the chance. OMGOSH, it is just heartbreaking. Dean is forced to do what he doesn’t want to in order to save the life of his family and Cas must do what he doesn’t want to in order to save his soul and help others and keep his angel status. OMGOSH, URIEL IS A FRIGGIN BASTARD AND I HATE HIM WITH EVERYTHING AND I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I SAID HE COULD BE INTERESTING. HE’S NOT INTERESTING AND I AM NOT GOING TO PUT UP WITH HIM DOING THAT TO MY DEAN. URIEL BETTER WATCH HIS BACK, ‘CAUSE IT’S GONNA GET KICKED WHEN HE’S NOT LOOKING - in a very well written, very deep, very personally-fulfilling fanfic!!!!!

I cannot believe how amazing Dean has been in this episode. Actually, since he’s played by Jensen Ackles, I can totally believe it. *Happy Sigh* I think that I just fell in love with that man - oooh, movies back.

Cas wishes he could feel sorry. Poor man. *Huggles* Vcas.

DEAN! Oh, DEAN!

WOW. Standoff for the ages!!!!!!!!

Lol. I love the namecalling. Lol. :

Oooh! Go Castiel. :D

I like Alastair. :D.

Not even Cas is strong enough for Alastair. NOT MY CAS. LET MY CAS GO. LET MY CAS GO. Oh, thank goodness. Dean just saved Cas.

What are they doing? Anna got her Grace back. SHUT YOUR FRIGGIN EYES GUYS. LISTEN TO HER!!!!

Woah!!! I am so glad they shut their eyes. Oh. My. They got their knife back. Then they’re gone. EEEEW. Ruby/Sam look.

I don’t trust her…lol. Love Ruby’s eye rolls. Oh, poor Dean. He lost his girl. That is so depressing. Knowing that she’s not happy and that he did that to her…oh, the poor man must feel so much guilt right now. He’s getting all tored up on the inside. *Huggles Dean*. That man never catches a break longer than five minutes…ever. Not since episode one. I just cannot believe where this season has gone - and I STILL don’t dig the Ruby angle. She has no where to go so she’s sticking with the only party left to her - the ragtag Winchester duo…but as soon as she gets an opportunity she is going to turn on them. I don’t care who she thinks she loves. The woman’s still a demon and I don’t trust her one inch. Even if she saved both of their lives yet AGAIN, I still wouldn’t trust her.

WHAT DID DEAN DO IN HELL??? Dude, it’s going to bother me a lot. At least my theory has been confirmed that it was IN FACT something that he did. *Gratified Smile*. :D

Anna’s hot. J.

I love season four of Supernatural!!! :D :D Dean finally found something - someone. Finally. They were so much alike and now he’s lost her for good. She can’t feel love or loss or anything and he knows that it is because of him. I just. Those scenes between her and Dean were sooo powerful! Short, but intense. I’m a shipper. :P. ;). Of those two.

Oh, I love that ending bit with them sitting on the car. BROTHERLY moment. Ah. Sam’s not gonna push for the story. I need to know. Push Sammy!!!

WE’RE GETTING THE STORY. My worst nightmares come true. Dean. Den. Dean!!! NOOOOO. Oh. This must be so hard for Sam to hear. It was exactly what I thought! Torn to pieces over and over and over again.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Dean did that. FOR THIRTY YEARS!! Oh, Dean!!!!!! I can’t hear this! Dean did that to those people. Oh that must have been so very, very, very, very awful. He did that o those people. OMGOSH. Dean . *SOBS*.

Sam goes right in there defending him. Oh. Dean. Thirty years. *sobs*. Oh. DEAN. YOU’RE BREAKING ME UP INSIDE. Oh dean. You don’t mean that. You can’t. Oh, DEAN.

Dean just told us what happened down there in Hell and it was the most awful thing ever. He - He - He… *Cries*. He had to torture people. He had to tear them apart. He had to bring the same pain to them that was brought on HIM and it’s just too horrible to even. I can’t think about it right now.

*SOBS HEART OUT*.
THIRTY years.

Icon of the Day

2008-11-20T20:57:00.001-08:00

My ICON of TODAY!!

Angel

2008-11-20T20:56:00.001-08:00

Lyrics | Leona Lewis lyrics - Angel lyrics

SUPERNATURAL THURSDAY Again

2008-11-20T20:02:00.000-08:00

After tonight there will be an eight week long hiatus. *Dies at thought* *Revives in anticipation of tonight's episode*.

I'll post all about tonight's episode at length if I feel up to it...still feeling really. Unusual.

Hmm.

Listening to Riot by 3 Days Grace. ;) GREAT SONG!! :D :).

Lyrics | Three Days Grace lyrics - Riot lyrics

Minimal Crisis Averted. :P

2008-11-20T13:00:00.000-08:00

Okay. So. Everyone in the know. Crisis averted, for now. ;S. Whew!! Mel, *HUGS* you are the awesome that lights my way through the journey of the unknown *a.k.a. LIFE*. :D. Thank you!! :D. Mom, thanks for all the help. Even Nat-han wasn't so bad today. ;). All had good advice and I made it through this....erm....problem. ;).

Alec

2008-11-18T20:53:00.000-08:00

JENSEN ACKLES in his younger years and his twin. . .Also known as: Brock Kelly

NEWS HAS COME

2008-11-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

Okay. I've got news on my Gramie. She's out of surgery. SHE WOULD HAVE DIED IF SHE HADN'T OF WENT IN WHEN SHE DID!!! She's okay right now, but it will be a long recovery road...and...well. None of us will be working for a while. I feel so horrible right now. They're both off on medical leave and they aren't getting paid for it -AND they have all these new bills to go along with that badness. So. I'm not helping them at all. Maybe I should just go home.

Although. Nat-han did offer to let me move in with him. That would be good! :). I think. Hope life is good for everyone else. *Hugs* Mel, Mom, Manasa! PML. Post, More, Later. :D.

Today AGAIN...sigh

2008-11-18T15:12:00.000-08:00

I'm in town right now. Writing and typing and searching and...just "hanging out". :). :(. I'm still in an indeterminate emotional state right now. I'll just call it "neutral". :P.

I found out that I had several thousand more icons and on my computer than I had first thought. Yeah. I re-discovered some that I had saved in weird files and totally forgotten about. I love Icons - just incase you didn't get that from my last post. ;).

I'm a fourth of the way done with my Incongruous novel. I will be finished by the 3oth. It HAS to be finished. So, I'm going to go and work on that some more. If I can get two more sections of it finished by tomorrow then I'll be content with that! :D. That will put the count up to seven. :D. Seven sections is just marvelous to me!! :).

I have a crush on one of the waitresses working at the restaurant I'm sitting in. :P. I'm so weeeird. lol. ;).

ICAN, ICAN

2008-11-18T10:41:00.000-08:00

Here's my icon of the morning!! ;). Luv me some icons. :P. :).

No News ... IS....Good News??

2008-11-18T10:34:00.000-08:00

Well, I haven't heard back from the hospital yet so I'm not sure how my Grammie is doing right now. My Grampa is down there with her right now and Nat-han is here with me right now.

Over-all. Stressful day. *Yawn*. AND I'm tired. Very tired. Yeah. Mt. Dew or coffee.....mmmmm.....COFFEEE!!!!! I'll have to make a pot when I'm finished with this post.

I decided to make a list of GOOD things that I've got RIGHT NOW. So, no more moping about being sad at the world. My top TEN list of GOOD THINGS is right here, right now. :D. Friends are not included, because everyone KNOWS they're at the top. ;). So, I'll leave them off for now. *GLOMPS* Friends.

THE LIST of pure goodness:

1.) Icons
2.) Dean Winchester
3.) Ability to sleep a late as I want
4.) Coffee
5.) History - books. ;).
6.) My laptop - my writing ON my laptop! ;)
7.) My Peshy - who I miss a lot!!
8.) Music on Youtube
9.) Penguins
10.) Being nice and warm - last but not least. :P.

Yeppers. That's my list of goodness for this morning. OOH! And Mel is shipping my SHIP! Yeah! :D :D :D Go Leslie/Sam! Wooohooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

AND Then there was HOPE

2008-11-17T20:20:00.000-08:00

Okay, Mel and Kathy both called tonight. Life is not so dark after all. Things are right and bright and cheery and .... alright, maybe not quite, but it's a whole lot better!

Mel always makes life better. :D. *Glomps* Mel. ;). All my woes are swept under the weaved carpet of denial and hope. ;). It is all good again. lol. :D.

AND then there was Alec

2008-11-17T17:44:00.000-08:00

The actor who will be playing youg Dean in the coming episode looks kinda like DA Alec.:D. Me likey! :).

Made noodles for dinner tonight. Going to work on my story. I joined NaNoWiMo so I will hopefully win!! wOOt! Mel, you should google and join! It's fun. :D. ;). :).

November's almost over. I hate life. I mean, I hate some parts of life. I love all the rest. :P. ;).

YOU KNOW...

2008-11-17T15:22:00.000-08:00

My Grammie is in the hospital. She's in a lot of pain. Life sucks.

*Sigh*. I didn't do too good on the test, didn't do too bad either. :P. Actually, I got right about average for most of it. Not bad. *Rolls Eyes* The math course I have to take they don't have until next fall so until then I'm going to have to work on my english and whatever else I can afford. I'll probably take some pre-business courses too. DK. I still have to apply for financial aid - doing that tonight.

I'm tired of everything sucking - except my friends and my writing :P - and I'm really tired of my FAMILY ENDING UP IN THE HOSPITAL. It's only been two weeks since my Grampa had his heart attack and now my Grammie is in the hospital. In a lot of pain. Uargh. I cannot wait until I live alone.

Or with my Mel. ;).

Later, world. I'll post more as it happens. *Heavy Sigh*. More stories over on S.S.A. Read at own risk.

Today's the Day

2008-11-17T08:51:00.000-08:00

I have to go into town in less than an hour. I am taking that COMPASS test...which I will, undoubtedly, achieve a negative score on. *Sigh*. Then I'm meeting with an advisor for the college. THAT should go well. *Rolls Eyes*. I think I might be getting sick . . . and I don't want that. But whatever. Things are going okay here. ;). Other than all of the above. :P.

I hope that I can get something published. Glimmer Train didn't want my story. :(. So, I'm going to get another one that I think they would publish and send it in and then I'll send Incongruous somewhere else. :P. :D. It's all good. ;). :).

You guys have a great day. I'll post and let you know how everything went...later. :).

Sad Again

2008-11-16T12:19:00.000-08:00

Just read some spoilers for the SN episode where we see the boys in high school. For Mel I won't post spoilers on here...but I'm sad again. *Heavy, heavy, heavy SIGH* Sad and Down and All. *Shakes Head* I think I'll probably end up crying during that episode too.

Jensen rocks...but his character is the most saddest ever. *=,(*

Racial Issues

2008-11-15T17:14:00.000-08:00

I know that I posted about this once before, but I'm going to again. Sorry.

I was just reading the news and it was talking about how there have been a lot of racially motivated attacks - both verbal and physical - after the election. *Sigh*. I've heard my share of these going around town here and I'd just like to say that for my part I've done everything that I can to discourage it.

My views on the matter are very clear. I don't tolerate people talking/acting in a manner befitting a FOUR YEAR OLD WITH A GRUDGE. That is how most of these adults are starting to act out. I mean, it is the least mature thing I've seen a really long time. :(. You've got all of these people who aren't happy about the fact that we have an African-American in the White House.

I have three words for them.

GET. OVER. IT.

There. I'm. Done.

;). :D. Spread the peace, guys, don't add to the chaos. Plz! *Hugs* To my wonderful friends!

AND THEN....Third take

2008-11-15T11:27:00.000-08:00

Okaaaay. Since Mel seems to NOT be shipping Leslie and Sam. I'M going to! I'm going to write me a series and get me a fanbase and have me a SHIP!!! ;). :P.

I need to work on my writing today. *Sigh*. I had a really late...early?...morning. :D. Watched Hellboy Two last night. *Yawn* Was up till after three. :).

The World In General

2008-11-15T00:43:00.000-08:00

Nat-han took me to see Quantum Of Solace with Daniel Craig. :D. It was "yeah". :D.

I also got to finally see Hell Boy 2 thanks to Nat-han. ;). He's been hanging out with me for most of the day. ;). At least he's not mad at me much anymore. :P. :).

*Hugs* Mel, you're awesome!!! :D :D :D Have a great day tomorrow!! ;). G'Night world. :D.

Another Day, Another Question, Another Restaurant??

2008-11-14T14:35:00.000-08:00

Okay. Well, it's another day. Things are looking okay. I'm not doing very well, but I'm doing very unwell neither. :P. In all, I'm doing just fine. Sad about the no job, but NOT depressed. The episode last night has left me a very thoughtful mood and I've been musing over what all of the things could have meant. I dread....and I truly mean dread, the episode that I know is coming where Ruby is going to play a large role. By Ruby, I mean the new, unusually non-gifted Ruby 2.0 :P. She's going to be the "centric" in an upcoming and I'm not looking forward to that at all.

Guess that I should have expected it because they left her in the show for years, but still. I hoped we'd never see her again after Metamorphosis. No hope! We are going to continue to see her. You know, I dislike her so much that I think I will actually miss her when she is no longer on the show. :P. :D. How totally weird is that going to be? lol.

Oh. I'm writing from the inside of a different restaurant. I decided to stop in for a Mt. Dew, change of scenery and to get some writing done. Right now I think I'm going to write a bit of Trevor Snow's story. So far there hasn't been a whole lot written about him in my stories and that has just got to chance because he is too awesome for that to happen! Right, right? :D!

I'm really worried about my COMPASS test because ... I suck at tests and everyone knows that. lol. :P. Still. *Fingers Crossed*.

I don't know how I'm going to pay for college. Financial aid only, you know, AIDS so it won't take care of the bill completely and I'm not employed which will make it even harder to think about. UGH. I just want to be a millionaire already. Forget all the in between! :D. :P. ;). :).

Okay, so I had a question for Mel. *Ahem*. When Ruby left 2.0 and entered the Housekeeper (3.0) then she said that her body (2.0) was rotting on the floor back in the cabin with Anna...does that mean that when she came back into the body it would have rotted a little for good. I mean, when she possess it does it HEAL it or REJUVENATE the body or does it just REANIMATE...as in, is she even more of a "walking dead" body with a demon inside? Than she was before???

Ugh. I just hope Sammy doesn't kiss her anytime in the near future. *Shudders* I'm STILL trying to stomach that scene last night, don't think I'll ever get to that point though. It was AWFUL!! *Sigh*.

I'm going to go and get some writing done now. I posted a new story over on S.S.A. you can check it out if you want to, but I also put it up on Supernaturalville.net because it was a short little Fic. :D. I love those. Short, sweet - erm, usually angst covered - with a nice little sprinkle of H/C. :P. Luv that. ;).

I've been watching some convention interviews with Jensen and Jared. Love those guys! They are just so adorkable and charming. :D. *Happy sigh*. Mel might be right about the Bi. :P. But I doubt it....;). Still, I can entertain. :D.

Questions About Tonight

2008-11-13T22:13:00.000-08:00

Okay. Here is my list of questions about what just happened. I have one every week, but I don't usually put them up on here. This time, however, I see no reason not to. So, here they are:

Why would Sam "do" Ruby? Why would he even WANT to....okay. I can answer that one. We saw in DALDOM that Sam was more than a little horny. :P. Something he hides well. From most people. :P.

Why wasn't Dean more UPSET about the Ruby/Sam thing? I mean, in M it seemed like he would kill Ruby on the spot for even THINKING about something like that and then he finds out that it actually happened and all he has to say is, 'Too much 411."??? I don't get it.

Then there was the fact that Ruby always shows up JUUUUUUUUUUST when she's needed, just in time to save the boys lives. It's been that way since they first found her and there's no way that it can be a coincidence THAT MANY TIMES. Let us see. There was the time she saved Sam in MS when those three demons were after him. There was that time in MM(S3) when she saved Dean and Sam from the witches demon. There was the time when she helped Bobby fix the gun. There was the time she saved Sam from the demon - right after her return from hell in IKWYDLS. There was the time she saved him AGAIN in IKWYDLS when Sam went after Lilith "alone". Then there was the time that she saved Dean's life when he was dying in MM(S3) in that hotel room. Then there was the time that she helped them get into the house Lilith had been in during NRFTW. That was, of course, before she was sent back to hell by Lilith.

ANYway, not buying her excuses. Becuase that's all they are. Don't trust a word she says and if it turns out that she really IS our very on SN-Severus-Snape then I will be the first to admit...that there WAS WAY MORE THERE THAN THEY EVER PUT ON SCREEN AND SHE'S NOT A SN-S-S. So there. :P.

Another question. What is it with Ruby and french fries? Wouldn't the salt alone make her sick? I don't get it. Hmmmm. Then there's the whole, HER HOST IS DEAD thing. What HAPPENS to the french fries? Just because she is in the body, does not mean that it is alive and working.

Which brings me back to the original question of HOW CAN SAM POSSIBLE "DO" A DEAD GIRL'S BODY WITH ....*gag*....RUBY...*gag*....IN THE DRIVERS SEAT??????

That boy lost some serious respect with me when he did that. :S. I just hope that it only happened the one time. I know, I know. I'm deluded. Of COURSE they were "getting it on" every freakin' night. Ugh! *Shakes Head*.

Okay. Then there's Dean. He is SOOOO hiding something from his time in hell and I'm guessing that it is a doozy. Probably had to do something horrible. Participate in some way. Otherwise that Ghost sickness wouldn't have affected him. He did something in hell - whether he was FORCED to do it or did it voluntarily remains to be seen, but something definitely happened down there - and that something is going to come back and bite him. Okaaaay. I know. Right? It already HAS come back to haunt him, bite him, whatever. Right? That's what is up with all of the nightmares and drinking. Sure, he experienced a. lot. of badness down there, but if HE DID something terrible then I'm sure that's what he keeps remembering. Knowing the Winchesters and their penchant for guilt/regrett/bad timing/bad moves and...well. Pretty much anything else you can think of that involves ignorance, good intentions and a negotative connotation. It's just one big, huge mess. :P. :D.

I love those boys though. Props to Jensen and Jared. Dean and Sam are so awesome! I may not be a Sam fan right now, but he's still my boy - bad choices and all. I won't abandon my Winchesters. ;). lol.

Post more later, I'm tired. :P. *Hugs* Kind people of the world!

I Know What You Did Last Summer

2008-11-13T22:01:00.000-08:00

Okay. So Ruby saved Sam’s life. Huh. Yeah. WHATEVER. Dude, she totally is playing him, but I can see how he would trust her after losing everything. I mean, he still had Bobby…but that’s it. Totally it. That dude had just lost the most important person in his life and then Ruby comes along and saves him from Hell…..I’d probably be inclined to trust her too. Well, I’d at least follow her out of danger…but…you know. She is really up to no good and Sammy should know better! I don’t know what her endgame is BUT SHE’S A FRIGGIN DEMON!!!! It is not going to be a Sam-friendly endgame. IMHO.

Not only that, but I mean, come on! Seriously? She saved him from one little demon. ONE. It wasn’t a massacre or anything, but he was vulnerable and she knew it so she took that opening. Ruby takes every opening she can get in order to get closer to that younger Winchester boy. *Shakes Head*. I am starting to really feel for him. He had so few choices. Almost as many as Dean does now. They truly aren’t the same people they were. So sad.

I may cry again. *Sigh*.

Then Alastair (Love how Dean always pronounces the names. :P) has the knife so all they can rely on is Sam’s dark powers. At least, until they can get the knife back, which will be pretty much impossible if that demon is as powerful as everyone says/thinks that he is. Trouble double-time. ;). It’s coming, fellows.

“Who do I have to kill to get some French fries around here.”

“I recycle.”

Okay, so the host is dead. I don’t care. Coma patient with no spirit. Apartment empty, that helps me a lot. Whew!!! I was worried there for a really, really long time. J . I don’t trust a word that she says, so how am I to really know that the spirit was gone from the body? What if the spirit is still attached in some way that she couldn’t sense? That would make a serious difference. Still she won my vote *A liiiiitle* when she told him to sober up or else. :P. Loved that moment. ;). J .

Oh! She just went in for a kiss. I’m with Sammy. THAT WAS ANYTHING BUT OKAY! AND HE BETTER NOT DO ANYTHING! L . She better get away from my Sammy or else. Dude, stop touching him! Ruby shut the fuck up, you’re not suppose to SAM NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

(Insert: EWWWWWW factor is off the charts. Sam just “did” Ruby. Ugh. Nasty)

OMGosh, He just told Dean about it! OMGOSH! HE JUST TOLD DEAN ABOUT IT! Dean knows it. Listen to him, Sammy.

I don’t believe that she has feelings for Sam. SHE’S USING MY SAM AND SHE BETTER STOP! Aaargh.

I really don’t like her using Dean to manipulate Sam…which is what she has done since the beginning. He should have done her in right then! He let his feelings get in the way. HE KNEW she was using him. He could see it. He could hear it and still he let her live. ARRRGH. SAMMY! What is going through that noggin of yours!!???? …. Ugh. Commercials. *Rolls eyes*.

So what if he finds out later that there was someone in that body? Will THIS Sam even care anymore? I’m not so sure. Losing Dean like that really took something out of Sam and that was BEFORE he started using and honing his darkness….ugh. What a mess those Winchesters have gotten themselves into. A horrible mess that isn’t their fault…but sorta is. You know, it’s a family cycle of self-harm that they seem to just pass on to each other. One is in danger so the other moves heaven and hell to save them then THAT one is in danger so the other moves heaven and hell BACK and on and on.

The commercial is over. Go Sam! Get that Lilith! Eeew. It’s a little girl. OMGosh! It’s NOT the little girl. OoooH! Lilith isn’t there. Go Sam! Ruuuuuuuuuuuuuun. Ugh. Ruby showed up. What if she planned that. Wouldn’t put anything past that demon. DON’T SAVE HER SAMMY! And does he listen? NO. He goes right ahead and saves her, dammed it! He took their “moment” too much to heart. He got ATTACHED! Noooo, she used Dean against Sammy.

I. Don’t. Like. It.

Lol. LOVE THE housekeeper. J . Love it. ;). Ruby as the housekeeper. Lol. ;). Dean’s face afterwards. Lol. Lots of lol’s in that scene. :P. :P.

Dean’s going to apologize….lol…and he CAN’T DO IT. Lol. Love it. Tension between them better not go anywhere. ;). :D. Drama. MMMMMM.mmmmm.MMMMM..mmmm.

Have I mentioned that I hate commercials? Lol.

Okay, well, at least we’re getting more of a workable dynamic between the two boys AND Ruby. I don’t care what kind of good she might have done for Sammy, I’m never going to trust her at all ever. If Dean had come back from hell as a demon I wouldn’t trust him either, even if he still ‘remembered what it meant to be human’. Because that wouldn’t change what he had become and the same goes for Ruby … only about TEN TIMES THAT! I really don’t like her although now I’m thinking that I can stomach them working together as long as it stays only that. I’m not diggin the whole Sam sleeping with Ruby thing. Ew. Like. Nasty. That’s …. like….necrophilia. EEEEEEeeeeW. Ugh. Nasty. *Washes out brain with mouthwash*. Nasty, nasty, nasty, ugh. I don’t ever want to see a scene between those two ever again, but at least they supposedly took care of the host side of things - good thinking on the part of TPTB. Seems that is the reason they haven’t been coming out to talk about what the fans have been saying about Sammy being a rapist. At least we’ve seen that it isn’t true.

Ugh. This commercial is getting me down about the economy *again*. Will the recession ever end? Don’t answer that, it’s rhetorical. I know OF COURSE it will end. *Heavy Sigh*.

WHAT IS IT WITH MY CASTIEL AND KILLING EVERYONE. MY CASTIEL IS BETTER THAN THAT, DAGNABIT! YES,
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I think we learn what happened to Dean next week. :D :D :D :D Forget worldly woes, there are TV goodness coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alright we just saw a little sneak peak of next week and I saw DEAN TEARS and the only picture of hell and him that we’ve seen to date. From NRFTW. :D :D :D :D :D All is right and good for now. I’m totally high on expectation.

WOOOOOOOOOT! :D :D

FIVE NEW ICONS

2008-11-13T20:36:00.000-08:00

Here are five of the ICONS that I just found on iconator.com. :D. Great site for pretty much any type of ICON you could POSSIBLY want to FIND! :). Have a great afternoon, people.

ICON Hunting

2008-11-13T19:40:00.000-08:00

I think that I'm going to go on an ICON hunt. :D. I'll show off some of my spoils when I'm finished. ;D.

Supernatural tonight. We finally - and I REALLY mean FINALLY - get to find out what Sam was up to all those months that Dean was gone in Hell and if that boy was "up to something" with Ruby I will chew his A$$ OUT! Seriously!!

K. Well, I am also going to meet Anna for the first time. She's the girl that can hear angels conversations. Dean and Sam are just about to be sent out to find her by Ruby. Uriel and Castiel want her dead...the demons want her alive...the two Winchester boys are, as usual, stuck in the middle of it through no fault of their own. They're just trying to save her life. *Sigh*. Good intentions....never really work out well.

My Internet connection has been really weird this afternoon. It keeps kicking me off and I think that it's because of the really bad weather over this way. ;).

I added more stories over on Supernaturalville.net and most of them are also on S.S.A. ;). So, you can go over there and check out Lollipop Disease - a short story that I wrote about Teddy. I thought that bear deserved a little bit of rememberance. ;). :D. :). So, yeah, you can go read it!!! :D

Anywhoo. So, I've got a little over an hour to go hunt for icons. ;). This should be fun! I'm running out of new icons and that always bothers me. :P. I'll post more up later. ;).

I went into town today and it really helped me feel better about my situation. Now if only someone would call me back things would be REALLY going great! ;). We'll see how this weekend and then next week goes.

Currently listening to "Let The Bodies Hit The Floor" by Puddleofmud!!! Luv that group. ;). I was also listening to "Crashed" earlier by Daughtry. LOOOOVE Daughtry!! :).

You all have a really great day! Nice talk, Mel. ;). *Hugs* ya'all. ;). :).

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